Feb 28, 2016

Of Feminism and A Virtuous Man

Of Oh Wonder - Without You and my neck pain.

I was asked by my girlfriend(I mean, literally my friend with female gender) that we've been a classmate since our first year in KMB. A nice friend, helpful when you need it the most and beautiful just as her heart is. She asked me on how I define a virtuous man, as I may have different pov(point of view) than her. Have I told you she's a feminist? Have I told you she protect us girls very much?

I took a small breathe and let it out in silence.

"A virtuous man to me, he realizes that in a patriarchal organisation, would never misuse his power.Would never dominate me and assign himself as a dictator that would make decision for me. He should know about girls power, my power, and respect that we too need to make decision. A virtuous man that intrigued me, is a man who'd give seats to women in the train, though people will question that even a woman is able to stand in the train like a man does. It is not about equality, it is about how a woman need to be respected. I'm more than happy if my man realizes how gentle it is for a man to give seat amidst the full train to woman, and would open the door for a woman. "

Until I realized, had I just set a standard for a man that I'm going to be married with? Hah, yes I just did.

I guess girls today know what they want. They would never want to be stopped for things they know they want to do and they afford to, and they do not want to be seen as weak.

But I personally looove the idea of a gentle man, that I thought it must be cool for my little brother to learn to be one. Well okay, I have to teach him to be one.

This is a random post, that I intended to write before studying starts.

Countdown to IB : 64 Days Left

Feb 15, 2016

In a very unproductive weekend....

This week was too much consuming my energy, despite the class started on Wednesday due to Chinese New Year.
I've had to catch up with many deadlines, final after final drafts(sigh, there's always a final after the very final draft). 

But anyway, during the chinese new year holiday, I received a conditional from Birmingham University. Alhamdulillah! Something that I've been longing for quite some time since all my classmates have received theirs. On Wednesday and Thursday - I was so depressed knowing that similarities result for my Extended Essay was 21% that I had to figure out to amend all over again.
Even I decided to fast without a proper sahoor, as I had to save time doing my assignments.It was totally hectic, I never think I've been through a day like that in KMB for the past 1 year ago. To add the drama, I overslept in the evening that I did not take food at Dewan Selera. Yes, I only have a biscuit and milk to break the fast, but alhamdulillah there's this one friend of mine who helped out taking the food during the boys' turn(in KMB we have different time for boys and girls to take the food).

Anyway, I was blessed with conditional offers from Queen Mary University London and Manchester University at the same Thursday morning! Another thing to be thankful for.

And after one whole night of not sleeping at all doing my extended essay, I can now sleep happily after the final copy sent to my supervisor. Yeyy! I had three cups of coffee that lasted until the evening of the next day. Haha!

And for these two days of unproductive weekend, I'm jut being happy doing stuffs like reading and finishing homework. A little bit of longer sleep and good rest, just as a self-reward :)

Just so you know, I'm counting days to IB exam : 76 DAYS LEFT.

Life has always been amazing and exhausted at the same time,
and I thanked Allah for answering my prayers to be accepted in one of London Uni.
I've always wanted to go to London school, and I prayed every day, even asked my parents to pray for me.I guess its their prayers that Allah has answered.

Can't wait for another chapter in my life, may Allah ease~