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Oct 27, 2015

The Thought : Living For Two

Lately, I've always pondering about the thought of having the other one in my life. It is way early than my current life phase now, I know. But  the real fight is to remain on the safe side as you're struggling with your studies, yet some of  your colleagues are in the middle of relationship or preferred to talk about lovey-dovey thingy. Of course, I don't mind to talk about it - for its natural that you're inclined to different gender. But it tempted me to go for the 'ship' before marriage and that's what something I've been avoiding to.

Then, the thought of 'the ifs' come afterwards. Like, really. It came spontaneously. 
What if the guy I'm married to someday is going to make me feel guilty for choosing him? What if I can't cook and he would leave me because of my dish? What if I want to work in UK after degree and he wants to work in Malaysia? Are we going to be separated, then? What if he cannot accept me for who I am - as I may not be ideally good as any others. I sometimes feel so lazy taking care of my own appearance. I sometimes too lazy to fold blanket before going to class. I sometimes too lazy to wash my clothes, and I'll wait until weekend so that I'd get ample time for it.

All those what ifs are too overwhelming to me. 
But the ultimate question is : Do I even have someone responsible to rely on?

I'm a good observer. I've seen how many men out there are not responsible and mean towards the girls. Whenever I am in the train, I will look at men who would rather sit than giving it to old ladies or girls who need it even more than him. I've heard and read many cases, that men do not give enough monetary term to their wives, rather would pass the responsible of taking care the family needs to working wives. 

And the thought is provoking me to stop thinking of living for two, because the probability to find a nice man may seems to be too subtle. I may be pessimistic this time, but as a girl - I counted that my life span that will be spent for marriage life is more than living single, and that's long to sustain.

I don't know. I'm just afraid that whatever that comes after this, may not be sustainable for me. Of course, an Economist would always think of what can be sustain in the long run, and that's the ultimate goal of economics. But yup, marriage may not be sustainable or sweet as it is. Marrying the wrong guy would lead to divorce or fight that will end up the ties, and that's what I'm avoiding to. Never wanted to.

That is when I realized I think too much. I have to be more relax, as its always a long way to go for me. 

So, the idea of a sustainable and long term relationship has put me to believe that a quality and ideal man that I'm looking for should not be based on looks, rather his personality. How he'd put forward his family before anything else, how he would think that career should not set aside his time for family, but that should not makes him less-career type of man.

Love can sometimes more complex than meiosis.
Or maybe I am even more complex than meiosis.
Or maybe both :)

This post is just my  random thought. Trust me.

Oct 17, 2015

Post Melbourne Trip.

Rasa macam dah lama dah pergi. Tapi takpe, cerita jugaklah untuk panduan orang lain.
Alhamdulillah, haritu dapat pergi Melbourne, Australia.Seminggu sebelum masuk Ramadhan. 
Naik Air-Asia dengan last minute ticket yang very costly sebenarnya, tapi okayla sebab guna duit Puan Ibu kan hehehe=)

It was 6 days trip campur perjalanan pergi balik.

First Day


Melbourne Tullamarine Airport


Nando's di Melbourne Airport. Only serve halaal food at 10 am.


So we stayed here, apartment dekat sangat dengan Victoria Market. Kalau convert ringgit Malaysia, boleh dekat RM1000 semalaman. We stayed here for three nights. Tapi best sebab boleh masak sendiri apa semua. Nak beli lauk dengan rempah boleh turun apartment dan jalan kaki ke Victoria Market.




"Out of all the flowers, you are still my bae" - Gedik sangat -__-



Beli salmon, rempah dengan buah-buahan untuk dinner. Masa pergi ni musim winter. Faham-fahamla winter ni memang menggemukkan sebab senang lapar.Eh ke aku sorang? :P


Second Day


Hari kedua ni pergi Melbourne Zoo je. Itupun sesat sebab tak mahir lagi guna trem.Tengok map pun tak reti. Penat tanya orang tapi akhirnya berjaya pun sampai zoo.

Mungkin untuk yang nak pergi sini, kena study dulu cara nak gunakan map. Or at least tahu colour coding bagi laluan trem. Macam nak City Circle Trem, memang free dan akan lalu bahagian bandar Melbourne.





Apalah Australia tanpa Kangaroo :')

Bila dah balik tu, dah gelap dah pun.Padahal baru pukul 5 petang. Winter memang siang cepat sangat dan malam pulak memang panjang.Jadi, disebabkan aku kempunan mencari benda-benda yang menarik dan melihat bandar, I took a brisk walk yet adventurous ke arah Flinders St.


Masala ni berdosa? Kesiannya!


Ya rabbi..dapnya dapat nasik!
Bayangkan makan salmon fish dengan nasi putih duduk apartment.
Tapi masak salmon pun salmon kari.
Perut melayu sangat!


Ni lah salmon hasil dari rempah beli di VM :)



K, jumpa syurga dunia. Dekat-dekat dengan Bourke St.



Lepastu jalan lagi lepas balik apartment.
Wednesday night market di Victoria Market.


Third Day.

Third day tak ingat sangat buat apa.Eheh. Tapi yang pastinya pergi area Flinders Street sebab nak beli buku dan lawat Holsier Lane. Tak lupa juga, pergi kedai-kedai yang jual kopi murah dengan harga $1 sahaja! Best sangat. Laneways dekat sekitar Melbourne pun memang penuh dengan coffee shops.


Cathedral




Flinders St.


Hosier Lane.


Typo dia memang banyaaak pilihan. To die for la tengok journal and buku-buku nota dia :')



Federation Square. Lapar sangaatt. Sebab banyak jalan dan musim winter, jadi makan tepi jalan je.Guna tangan pulak tu.Sangat Melayu :P

Petang-petang pula berpicnic depan hotel.Literally depan hotel sebab ada park yang sangat cantik :)





Strolling strolling at the park :)
Fourth Day

Pagi-pagi lagi dah checkout untuk ke Great Ocean.
Sebelum tunggu checkout, jalan-jalan VM lagi untuk hot chocolate.



MasyaAllah, border green and blue.
Sangat-sangat cantikk :")

Dan sejuk, of course.




 Idea siapa ni makan tepi pantai masa winter.
Berketar tak rasa tangan dah :'')



 Our trip ended at this hotel.Sebab dekat dengan airport.

All in all, we went there without any tourist guide. Sebab anglophone country kan, nak risau apa.Cuma kena risau kalau tak faham Australian accent jela, atau risau sebab bila orang-orang OZ bagi direction - aku rasa overvague sangat. Macam kata dekat, tapi sebenarnya 30 minit jalan kaki. Sabar jela anak-anak. 
 Bagi 5 bintang untuk Melbourne, yey!