May 29, 2015

Planning for semester two break!

Alhamdulillah,I'm all done with semester two.Off to the next semester,being a senior and that also means less than one year from IB exam! *perpetuates*

I guess the exam wasn't an easy going.Despite of good schedules we have this exam,but there are few days with combo paper,quite not good to us.Like BMS with Mathematics.Or Economics and Chemistry.Its just unbearable at that moment.

I only have less than 5 hours of sleep in average of a day,but alhamdulillah I could stand with it and yes I also managed to wake up soo early during the exam week.Hats off Balqis!

So now,I'm having my semester holiday.........for two weeks!

But I'd tell you how many assignments need to be done this break,and to be send right after the sem break.Owh goodness,you'll never have any idea how to finish it all when you have so much ample time,yet you tend to watch movies and baring-baring atas katil,or scrolling instagram and facebook.

Regretted for a day and half not being productive.Guess its enough for a day of break for myself as a reward as I managed to sleep early and get a long sleep,and not forgotten to The Theory Of Everything movie that I watched today.Hehehe.

So,let me list down every single little thing to do during this semester break.

1-English HL - The Palace Thief
2-Extended Essay - Duedate :29th June
3-Internal Assessment BMS - Duedate :22nd June
4-Math Exploration - First Draft after holiday
5-Read Malay Novel entitled Srengenge ( 10 page a day at least)
6-CAS calendars to be scan and saved in Dropbox/email
7-Fundraising for Year 1 Registration-Beli barang,bahagikan tugas
8-Remembrance of Al-Quds proposal and contact Aman Palestin
9-Written Assignment - Malay and English
10-Donate Blood
11-Australia on 8th to 13th
12-Pergi majlis ilmu

So yes,these are the assignments that I need to finish up during this week as I'll be leaving Malaysia for a week to Australia inshaallah.
I hope I would be able to finish this off ameen.

2 weeks for all eleven checklists are not a good sign for an ample holiday peeps.I'm innerly crying of doing IB,and somehow jealous thinking of friends having good days without any minithesis and research.

4000 words for EE.
750 words for Internal Assessment BMS,Malay,English..
1000 words for Math Exploration
Not to mention Srengenge novel which I barely able to understand,and it takes quite some time to understand the gist of the story.

Pray hard,work hard and lets rave with IB!
*I also provide one small book to keep myself on track with a productive semester break.Please make it real balqis!

May 21, 2015

Ever feels like quitting?

For god knows how many times.
But I keep on going.Tears,sadness,sleep deprived,hungry yet you can choose either to eat or to sleep.
Then,you'll start losing the meaning of entertainment or leisure.Leisure means nothing,except when you're able to get 6 hours of sleep,that's your definition of leisure.

Its been more than 8 months I am here in KMB.Kolej Maha Busy they said,no doubt I'd say.
Surely there are ups and downs.More to downs actually.Times when you do a lot of revision yet the standardized test marks may not be on your side.Times when you start thinking of a lot of research for your IB in every subjects.

You'll feel like quitting.
You'll feel like,ok that's it.I'm out.
But you start forcing yourself back on track.Out of no reason.Sadness and giving up is just not your option,as you've sacrificed alot for this foundation programme.

But you know,Allah is The All Knowing.There will always be someone that you know will be by your side to calm you down when you're depressed,tensed,and feels like crying(oh yes,when you have already bursts out too).Sometimes,He sends wind to you,so that you'll feel like He's hugging you,and say that's okay.

I am now here at the end of my 2nd semester exam.2 more semesters to go,before being IB survivor.1 year to go,before making the dream to fly a reality.

Deep in me,is some kind of sadness I must say.
I'm like down and fell in a ravine,that no one's holding my hand to save me.I'm vulnerable,and everything seems to be so complicated and sensitive.
Seeing someone smiling back to me,touched me.
Talking to someone and they make jokes so that you may laugh,appreciated.
Every small things happened,you look at it as a bless.
I guess being stressful makes you appreciate things around you more,and closer to Him.

I can't be more happier when Mom brought me to renew passport,at the same time I had my Green Tea Frappe(longing for 3 weeks meh!) and a cup of cappucino.So chilling,and I feel like rejuvenating.

I can't be more happier when Dad wake me up every morning at 3 am so that I could wake up and do revision.Guess who's hardly to pick up her dad's phone call,over sleeping at 1 o'clock,expecting to wake up at three am?

Dad's patience made me smile over and over again.Sometimes,more than 14 misscalls.Sometimes,I lied that I've already wake up so that he won't call me back.

I'm tired.But everyone here in KMB,does too.
I'm struggling,but its not for myself.I'm struggling for the best result so that I wont be a slander to my own Deen.So that I could show that Muslims are genius and diligents.So that I could go to UK and back with a pack of knowledge.

Ya rabb,its totally hard.You know IB is hard.
I've tried to talk to several of my friends,but sooner I realized that they won't understand your pain.
They're not taking IB so what advice would you expect?(not to put them down,just because they don't take IB).When I tried to talk to my colleagues and classmates over matters regarding IB,we ended up sharing the same pain.

So,I realized - the only thing is to talk to Allah.Allah knows best,what is the best remedy for me.
Because surely,humans may not give medicine to heals your heart or they might give the wrong one.
Its only and solely Allah who knows better what's in my heart,and I started to talk to Him in my prayers.Telling Him how difficult life is,for its ups and downs.Telling Him so much chores to be done,yet so little time I owned.

Today I have khatam my Quran for em,I couldn't remember.9?10?
But that's okay.Khatam Quran while doing IB is such a big achievement for me.
Next thing is,to rememorize surahs in Quran that I left without revising.

Till then,goodbye :)

May 20, 2015

Seeing You.

I tried to drink what you like.
But it tastes bitter.

So I thought I've lose the battle.
As much as you've won the top scorer.

I saw you in You.
But maybe its because I'm confused.
And seeing a person resembling you,turned me this way.

I can never have cappucino.
And you can never able to love machiatto.
So,here comes an end.

May 1, 2015

So I published a book with FAQ :)

Alhamdulillah,now that I am able to write on this blog after quite some time.It was quite hectic as I gotta handle trips for the kids at Tadika Annur KMB,handling their sports day,at the same time thinking over fundraising projects that would allow us to expand the kindergarden for the sake of their comfort.

Not forgotten to the IB itself,with all quizzes and standardized tests(I guess the results were not that good,hmm) and to homeworks and ongoing internal assessment.Thought that I won't survive.

People didn't know,that at the same time I was undergoing one project - writing a poetry book.It was hard,yes it wasn't an easy task to be such a multitasker.But subhanallah,I myself I don't think I would be able to make it without Allah's help.Being an IB student at the same time writing a book is not an easy task,indeed.

But yeah,I made it(with Allah's help and his strength that He lended to me).
This book was officially on my hand last week,when I went to KL Book Fair,and that was my first time I hold my own book.

Excited? Yes I was,and still am.

This is the book that I wrote during my travel time,where I really lothe of wasting my time over not doing anything.Usually my flight when I travel would be in the morning,so I'd have my overnight at the airport.I would spend that night typing typing and amend my poem,at the same time stealing some time doing revision for my studies.It wasn't an easy task.I even did study Economics on my flight from Jakarta to Malaysia,because I know I shouldn't just let time passed by without doing any benefit to me.

I really tried,to maximize my time.Goodbye to leisure time watching movies and sleep,because most of the time I had very little time of sleep and my sleeping time was even abnormal.That was the price I have to pay in order to achieve something.

But worry less,I think the sacrification just worth it!

Moving on to the Frequently Asked Questions.

1- How much is the price for this book?
    : RM 15 je :)

2-Where to find this book?
    : Iman Shoppe or you may also get it right from Pesta Buku Antarabangsa Kuala Lumpur ( Mawar 
      Room,M08,Iman Publications).Yeah you may get it from me personally with signature! Do                 email me at or catch me on Facebook!

3-What this book is all about?
   : It has no theme.But most of the poem touches on my personal observation during my travelling or 
    human's values.It is a book that I wrote about what was in my heart and in my head,though.

4-Are you the only writer?
   : Yes,alhamdulillah.

5-Can I get the signature if I didn't buy directly from you?
   : Unfortunately nope.The only thing is you can get the signature by buying directly from me,but it        takes some time waiting for new stocks.Afterall,you may just buy first and read so that you may          ask the autograph when you come and see me someday.I'd keen to meet people who wish to see          me! We could share new ideas and thoughts,who knows?

6-Who's the publisher?
   : I shall thanked Grup Karyawan Luar Negara for having me and giving me opportunity to publish a      book.They are people who taught me from nothing,to publishing a book.How can you join                  GKLN? Yes you may join but you must be in preparatory college going to overseas,or already at        overseas,or graduated from overseas(and the name of the group is quite obvious,no?)

7-Am I going to be at the PBAKL again?
   : Sadly no.As I need to study and focus on my semester 2 exam.I'd be in KL once I have finished          with my exam,and yes you may set the date to see me during the holiday :)

8-Have you published a book before?
   : Got two though.One is Tanah Tanpa Peta,another one is 99 Puisi Palestin(kinda liddat) and it is          also a collection of poem dedicated to Palestine,shared with some other writers too.Alhamdulillah.

9-Why Cahaya Atas Cahaya?
   : You may find it inside the book at the introduction ;)

10-So the whole book is about?
   : A writing when I was travelling.About being a merchant,about travelling.Got some poems about        love,some about the countries I have visited itself,some about criticising humans,and some is more      to my own personal stories :)

11-How long does it takes to write this book?
   : 4 months,or lesser.

Any other questions?
Drop down here or on my!